by Joaquin Munoz

To say I’m going through a tough time is an understatement
To say that I’m also having the time of my life makes it a contradiction
But lately I’ve found that life is anything but a one way street or confined to black or white
I finally admit to it being a gray area, a sort of blurred line.
What problems am I going through, you might ask?
Why merely what every teenager goes through
The intoxicating high of believing you “love” someone
A fantasy that consists of having someone else besides your parents that actually cares for you at least for the moment being
The lingering sting of the realization that it’s not meant to be
Reluctantly admitting defeat and trying to move on from the pain that is rejection
At first a laughing fit accompanied by shock which in turn is followed by anger which then subsides into cries as I eat my food.
The saying I can’t catch a break widely used afterwards
But hey you have enough time young man and you’re merely learning the ropes they say, merely having a taste of the main course
Well that’s easy for you to say
Because to me it feels like an eternity
As I look back at it though, a fully formed adult now,
I can’t help but smile
HA I wish that time were now.